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[a_different_future]

You can ask. I might not answer.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

All right.

You mentioned, when we spoke before the flood, that you were persuaded to try and be good once, and you were killed for it.

I wondered what made you want to try that life, and if you regret that now.

[a_different_future]

I met another version of myself from a parallel world. He convinced me, no doubt in a ploy to avoid fighting me, that there was 'still good' inside of me and that I could change both myself and the world's perception of me.

I regret it. I might have come from there to here, but it was never my world and the idea of the people there ever welcoming me is ludicrous.

That's the other thing: some choices can never be undone. You can worry at the knot all you like, but it'll just give those running behind you the chance to stab you in the back.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

I have never personally, believed that good was something internal. Or that we need to have some secret reserve of it left inside us to do good things.

I think that's what I mean when I say that people don't need to change here. From how you've treated me, indeed, from every single encounter that we've had since you arrived here, you are more than capable of being good to people.

Whatever you think is inside you, whatever you've done. You treat people well.

[a_different_future]

I've also killed people. Many many people.

A third of a graduating class. A man at his wedding. Any criminal practicing his trade in my city.

I don't believe that beings have a right to live, especially not those who are a threat to my life. Or who do things I don't like. I'm assuming that's why I'm an inmate, after all.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

So have I. Only I killed men who I had no quarrel with at all. Men who were exactly the same as I am, only aligned with a different empire.

I don't hold either of those things as being mutually exclusive with doing good.

Do you regret any of that? Any of the killing you've done?

[a_different_future]

[ It would be so easy to say no. And honestly, it's the truth in so many cases. So many. Most of them. But- ]

One.

But it was necessary.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

Do you mind telling me who?

[a_different_future]

That depends on why you want to know.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

Because you're complicated, and I like you. And I wish I understood you better.

[a_different_future]

[ There's a significant pause before the answer comes. ]

My brother.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

[Welp. That's pretty sad.]

I'm sorry. Even if it was your only option-- Especially if it was your only option.

[a_different_future]

It wasn't my only option. I just didn't realize it at the time.

Then again, it might have been. I can't be sure. I suppose that's why I regret it.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

It amounts to the same thing, I suppose. In the end.

What was he like?

[a_different_future]

A Luthor.

But I suppose beyond that, he was also brilliant. Intense. Clever at times. Private, always.

[sssiiiiirrrrr]

He sounds...

He sounds a little like you, actually. Intense and clever.

[a_different_future]

We were raised together.